Sunday, May 3, 2009

porn

Take a look out the window.

Well, it's raining.

Darn.

But it's Sunday, the best day of the week!

And PCC did a service about pornography.

WHAT!??!? PORN?!?!

Yep. PORN.

Why has our society...actually, why has the WORLD and the people in it changed the way God intended sex to be? How come most of us accept the fact that our relatives and friends have a destructive habit, which leads to unhappiness in their relationships? No satisfaction? I wonder, and I ponder on the lack of attention towards the subject. The problem isn't sex, it's what we have made it out to be. How we have taken the biological process and shaped it into a replica of imagination, and sometimes abuse. No one can undo it. Heck, no one can stop the porn business, it's too successful, it's too popular, it's desired and it's a MONEY MACHINE. As human beings we are given the choice to give in, or stay out.

Yet, we live in this world where it's a normalcy. And at my age, in high school, it's much more common than the use of drugs, alcohol, etc.

A part of me believes that people aren't immediately swayed by porn, that it's a "slow fade". You look at the screen, the pictures in the magazine, the words in an erotic novel, and a shock ignites in your mind, "This is how it's supposed to be?!". And it's pain, it's grief that comes as a consequence. Then eventually, it's numbness. The loss of innocence, or moral value. We no longer see people around us as human beings, but as items of sexual fantasy.

So many of us have been exposed at a young age, later in life, or at a time when your spouse's addiction affects your relationship. I strongly think that the imagination is much more difficult to erase than the actual action of sexual immorality. Because if your imagination is still running, that means your want for it still exists. And how do you approach God with that? How do you approach the Lord with a cry to wipe the slate clean when you cannot come to terms with your sin? We can ask for a direction to where we can break ourselves in order for us to see Jesus' true path for us, and see people as He wants us to. The most amazing, amazing, and amazing thing that the Lord offers us is a chance to gain purity again.....

Just now I stopped typing and closed my eyes and felt like Jesus was saying to me, "I promise you this opportunity to become new in my light."

I'm praying for all who are struggling with an addiction to porn. God's promise for us to be new again is what I praise Him for right now, in this moment. It's a personal topic, it runs deep within the darkest pit of depression within us, but we can always, ALWAYS be sure that Jesus knows what's going on. He knows the way out, and He has so much confidence that we can break free if we choose His guidance, rather than that of our addiction's allurement.

3 comments:

Angie said...

Jenn,
This is great! Your insight into the issue of pornography is intriguing, as most of your thoughts are:) I particularly like that you mention how common this issue is amongst teenagers, and that it's about what you read and see.

Brian C. Hughes said...

Jenn,

Thanks for putting your thoughts on this subject out there for us. I was especially moved by your ideas about the difference between action and imagination - how imagination stays with us.

You are right: even though it's hard to see, God DOES offer us a pathway out of sin and back to Him again. Always.

Double E said...

Jenn,
Erik Edwards here! I just so happened upon your blog this am. I have been reading thru them over the last hour or so. Then I found this one. Its August 26 2009. God's timing is pretty cool here. Not sure if you get notifications when someone comments on your blogs but if you get one...pray for what is about to take place tonight. Several peers are going to have the opportunity to face and deal with this addiction among many others tonight. This series Brian taught on along with some other events including me coming across your blog I came across this morning just simply show me and encourage me that God is working here.
Your sensitivity to God and what he has to say to you and you fervently seeking it is very moving. Its like new life to me. I thank God for your life and what you have to give to Him. Your words and the gifts you have are pointing to Him. Not yourself. That's glorifying him. Making his awesomeness more visible...not making him more awesome but shining a light/magnifying what is already there.
thanks