A bowl of ramen noodles is currently sitting in my lap as I'm typing this.
I didn't go to school today! My parents gave me the option to stay home. Thank you God!
Last night I was struggling with feelings of hate and wanted to call certain people out on bad things they've done that bothered me. I would never have the guts to do something like this, and I think I am starting to grasp even more the fact that it's not my place to do so.
When I woke up this morning around 11 o'clock, I reached for my bible. Reading the bible seems to help quite a bit when going through confusing situations. Right now I'm reading the book of John. Good stuff.
The verses that caught my attention this morning were John 8:1 through 8:11. I'm sure many people already know this story, but based on my present feelings towards people who either remind me of my past or continue to hurt me without knowledge of doing so, this story lit a more peaceful light bulb in my mind on how to react emotionally.
"But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, 'If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.'...At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there." (John 8:6-9)
Although I never found myself to be more perfect than any other person (and with that I do not believe anyone is perfect), I often have gotten angry when I see people do bad acts in front of me, and I'm starting to think that maybe it's because I used to do what they're doing, and sometimes slip into their same actions from time to time. It's become more and more visible to me that we are all equal, and that we are all sinners.
After reading this story I feel more content, and not nearly as much pain. Along with that I don't naturally think pessimistically about others or desire to correct them somehow. That's why I love learning about God though, it's a process. I believe His teachings are only to bring about good, nothing else.
The word of God has proven to continuously provide me with happiness and belief in His love. I'm looking forward to what's next.